Well, we completed the AIDS walk in record time.  Less than an hour - 5K, or if you will, about 3 miles.  Feet a bit sore and bruised, but the 'training' paid off as I did not get tired or have sore muscles. 
The walk here in Indy was less attended than it was in Wisconsin.  There were so few walkers that the registration desk was only serviced by 5 people.  In Milwaukee there was a huge tent for registration.
I talked last entry about whether to end the eZine or not.  I am pretty quickly coming to the decision to not continue with it for another year.  I really need to get out more and I so miss teaching and even working (gasp!) outside of the house.  I filled out an application to volunteer at the Damien Center, the local AIDS Resource center.  I would really like to see if they would hire me to do fundraising for them.  I think they are missing lots of corporate opportunities and I think I could help them out with that.
Additionally, I learned while teaching ESL that the more you give of yourself, the more you get back in return.  Now this is no reason to volunteer.  A person should volunteer because they are empassioned about something.  But the truth is that however rewarding it has been to facilitate the desires of new artists and authors for validation, it has not become what I hoped it would.
I still am not realizing any donations to the site.  And after all is said and done, other than a few new skills, the only thing I will walk away from the project with is some new friends in some diverse places.  I don't want to be misunderstood; new friends are always good and especially those who live in places I'd like to visit.  But a person needs more from their work - and I so miss being creative on my own terms.  
When I was teaching ESL I came away from the experience feeling that I had given someone a tool that they would use for their entire life.  I also learned a lot from my students. 
The eZine has given me all of that, but it has also trapped me behind a desk for 6 to 8 hours a day which is not good for one's health and well being.

It would suck to get involved in a project here in Indy only to find the relocation monster rearing its ugly head again. 
Other than 'Rebecca', I have had zero input on this issue which leads me to wonder if anyone reads this stuff - or the eZine.  (well, I know they read the zine .....)

Since this is my second blog, the first of which is at: http:greymatterflatulence,blogspot.com/ I will make a fresh start here. Linking this blog entry to my goal statement I will talk a bit about ScribeSpirit and my will (or lack thereof) to keep it going. ScribeSPirit was born of fire. The 7 original charter members (including myself) were a diverse group from around the globe. Paula has since gotten married (or so I hear), Susan has moved and accepted a job (internship really) and is in the process of recording her first CD, Ron is now involved in (and founder of) The International Carnival of Pozitivities, an HIVAIDS blog carnival. Hud is still with ScribeSpirit writing for each issue as he can, but also working on screenplays. Suzie wasn't with us for too long, I think she might have been a bit intimidated by the project, although she is ScribeSpirit (and Zaadz) material. Elki has married as well and to a man who has quite the swing to him, however, Elki had just completed an incredible article for the zine about eating disorders. As a group, the original members ePublished one issue that was hosted in Germany on Susan's website. In January of this year, after Jon built the badly functioning second website and the charter broke up, I decided to take on ScribeSpirit alone. In March of 2006 I met a web developer whose principals I severly misjudged. He enthusiastically agreed to take on the task of developing a site for ScribeSpirit that would have a nice and friendly content manager. That developer was Aaron. Aaron did what he said he would do; he built a site (albeit in a language and application that is not highly used) that was lovely and useful. Aaron also accepted a position as VP of the company that I was incorporating as the parent for ScribeSpirit. Aaron was paid for his work as developer, although as a member of board of directors he was a volunteer. All sounds nice, yes? When pressed to begin work beyond the original site development, and for the company, Aaron quit. Yes, quit. No reason why other than he felt I was being hard on him when I asked him to commit to meeting dates, proofread 3 articles before the ezine deadline and ask him to respond to company email on a timely basis. Today ScribeSpirit it left without a developer. It is, in essence, devoid of any financial backing. Without a developer, I can't even change the fact that the zine is free - nor can I eliminate the free promotion that Aaron gets from his name being on every page of the zine. I have three options to chose from: one, to keep the zine alive as it is doing all the work myself. two: to dissolve the corporation and let the ezine go away at the end of the service contract with the provider host. three: hang in there and file my federal papers, apply for grant money, find someone to hire to help me, and grow the business. Deciding which option works best for me is difficult. Deciding which option is best for the eZine is even more difficult. The eZine gets a fair amount of good feedback. However, it does not get funding from its readers. Why buy the cow when the milk is free? But if not free, then do I accept that to be enlightened one must pay? For now, I will try to be very Zen in my approach and take the "wait and see" option. I have many feelers out there looking for input, money, support. And I am full of ideas. But I am also tired and in need of some serious downtime. Who can say what tomorrow will bring?